Every living being is a dancer

I feel really sad for people with so much hate in them. And I don't mean it in a condescending or patronizing way. I sincerely mean it. I wish they could embrace beauty and love and accept that life can be shitty. While life is beautiful, it is ugly and you can't change that. It is a constant factor.

I hope people realize that whenever I put on music, I pick the artist or album very deliberately, like playing that music is a way of saying something or putting a certain type of ambience in the air. I know Tim and Ely do, and I appreciate that so much. But weirdly enough my mom doesn't. She used to play all this music for me when I was a wee one, that inspired my infatuous love for music, but I feel bad I can't do the same for her. It's all about a particular vibe that you pick up from people when you're listening to something together. Whether stay quiet, or comment on it or just ignore it all together.

My evening with Alex was nice. He told me he kind of goes "mooshy" when he's around me so that's probably why he's always talking lol. I want to enjoy a bit of silence with him though and I want to see how it feels. I feel like you can tell a lot about your connection with anyone by a nice silence. Even strangers. It's odd, I'm attracted to him, physically.  But the more I think about him the more I like him in more than a friend way. I didn't really think I would. I didn't think our personalities were compatable. I guess I'm doing what Iryne taught me. I see his flaws but I'm learning to like them or get used to them. (Even though he doesn't have many.) (I think the preponderance of awkwardness when we're around each other is based on his nervousness.)
I still think about Manny though. Time will erase those feelings though I guess.

Ely,
your acid comment lol, I feel it too lol, I get really nervous around you and I don't know why and I probably cause some awkwardness or a lack of comfortablenessss . I forget myself, not in a bad way, just in a weird way. I love when we were so stoned and laughing, I love hanging out with love

"Aquarius and Libra

When Libra and Aquarius join in a love match, their relationship can serve to heighten and strengthen both Signs’ consciousness. These two connect on a high mental level; they share a love of art, people and culture; they both abhor restrictive influences in their lives. They are likely to get along well because they have such similar needs and will not require more of one another than they’re both willing to give. Both Signs are also very energetic, enthusiastic types; this relationship is not likely to become stagnant.
Both Aquarius and Libra are concerned with the betterment of the world and their fellow people. Aquarius is the most progressive thinker of the Zodiac, and they always have a new idea in the works. Libra is the diplomat of the Zodiac; abhorring conflict of any sort, they are born balancers (hence their Symbol, the Scales). Libra’s urge to avoid conflict put together with a love of intellectual freedom can lead them to be somewhat indecisive at times; when this happens, more decisive Aquarius can step in and help Libra figure out which direction to turn. Libra can return the favor by smoothing Aquarius’s occasionally ruffled feathers that result from the Water Bearer’s idealistic thinking sometimes crashing down in the face of reality.
Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus (Love) and Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Uranus (Rebellion) and Saturn (Karma). This combination of influences can be an interesting and productive one; Libra and Aquarius should certainly take on other projects together than simply their love relationship, because they can make great things happen using their hearts, their urge for progress and their consciousness of the greater good. These two are an extraordinary duo for standing up for social justice or radical change in the community.
Both Libra and Aquarius are Air Signs. They have strong intellectual bonds to one another and constantly stimulate one another’s ideas and communication styles and skills. Again, their ability to work together makes it obvious that these two Signs must take on larger projects in their life together — they should concern themselves with the greater good. Libra can bring a certain balance to any undertaking that almost no other Sign is able to achieve. Aquarius and Libra together will also have many stimulating intellectual discussions about their interests and pursuits.
Libra is a Cardinal Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Libra sets things into motion but may have trouble finishing them, which is what makes Aquarius’s determined influence so positive: The Water Bearer has a great deal of follow-through and can take Libra’s ideas and run with them to the end. These two work especially well together as they tend not to argue about who does what, who takes credit and who works behind the scenes versus out in the spotlight.
What’s the best aspect of the Libra-Aquarius relationship? Their ability to work together as a team. Together they can learn much more than either Sign would alone. Their accomplishments and love of socializing and new projects make theirs a highly successful relationship."
I feel like my relationship will get stronger with him, it's not all crazy and overwhelming for me right now but I reall think it could get to that point.