Rychlewski said something very interesting today. He said that there are two kinds of people in this world... people who let things go and people who don't. Many people cling to the past as an excuse for their future, and even their present. I'm not going to be that person any more.

I'm very stationary right now; my mind is. I'm really mad at myself for not making it into Puget Sound in Washington. But alas, there isn't anything I can do about that now. Just have to accept it.

I'm really happy for Yerika with her whole Pomona thing. I would say she is lucky, but I also know that her whole thing had to do with hard work more than it had to do with luck.

So I guess I'll use my failure as motivation.

I'm going to start volunteering soon. (yayaa) My friend, Alex has a hook up and we might start volunteering together. I'm happy about that. Alex is a cool dude. I went to the military ball with him last Friday night. He completely opened up to me; I like that I make people feel comfortable. It makes me feel like I have some purpose. After he (somewhat futilly) tried to teach me how to dance, Andrew drove us around. We went on the highway and went 130 mph and blasted music. It was kindof nice. Andrew is definately one of my homess. He comes over a lot and we'll just drink a beer and talk about shit on my roof late at night. We get each other. I want to go visit him in South Carolina, when he leaves.

I had a burger for lunch today. I really felt bad about it. I don't want to eat meat anymore. I don't feel like my boycotting the meat industry will make change. It's just a personal thing. It had a heart and beautiful, big, brown eyes. It lay in a swamp of minour its whole life. Something so beautiful in such an ugly situation. Ely and I went to Petsmart yesterday (and quite randomly so lol). We wanted to take home every living creature we saw. I like that about her. Everything, the smallest things are so beautiful. It made me realize how lucky I am to have pets, pets who give me so much love. My baby Ell-namomo <3. I want to give back to them what they give to me. It makes me miss my wonderful babydoggg, Neville. Animals have a unique naivite that make them so full of perspective.

It feels strange to finally believe people, with compliments in reference to me. I always believed the negative stuff first and I would churn it over and over again in my mind. I should always remember negative things I need to work on, but it shouldn't consume me, like it has before. It feels nice to finally believe the good stuff though.

I'm going job hunting today with my friend , Eddy. He said he wanted to talk about stuff too.  Ely is supposed to come though too(call me lady!!!)